"born to die": shit shite.

"born to die": shit shite.
he lived, loved, showed, was killed, lives.
let's reclaim easter

may you be happy

may you be happy,
healthy, safe and free - me, you, all.
repeat. cultivate.

fond council memory

fond council memory:
"just rum and raisin icecream".
from multi-storey

ER

smack crack sexwork AIDS

smack crack sexwork AIDS
kicked out next week(?) dementia
my age. for how long?

ED

size heartbeat normal!

size heartbeat normal!
normal tear-inducing good!
when why does that change?

"don't feed trolls" - now know!

"don't feed trolls" - now know!men women known unknown. hell
paved with righteous words


mail nor guardian
(committed commissioner)
middle road above

be clear and on time

be clear and on time
if saying no new shelter.
don't bury good news!

our lives will soon change

our lives will soon change
i summon all love always
bless your life, our lives

if mavis is quick

if mavis is quick
kneel behind, love, catch, bring up
skin to skin, towel, done

wow. baby turns twice

wow. baby turns twice
getting head round pelvic way
down into our world

councils have pathways

councils have pathways
faith groups challenge, do own things
let's love each other

drunk old cat on stool

drunk old cat on stool
beauty's so close to me
bonkers strong beauty

twist tory MPs

twixt tory mps
and angry dickhead faith groups
i work for councils

famine in yemen

famine in yemen
civil / proxy wars. no smiles.
brexit easier

great western map

great western map
full of red lines dots memories
wish i could ask you

granddad, granny, phil

granddad, granny, phil,
grandma, poppa, bp, dad:
what you make of me?

fuck you moon! for howls

fuck you moon! for howls,periods, death tides, nightmares
yet she's just her thing

one busies along

one busies along
i felt a kick, and realized
she's really coming!

what if church could be

what if church could beas marvellous, concerned, gorgeous
as blue planet II?

geoffrey dinosaur?

geoffrey dinosaur?
rainbow rabbit? thanks olly!
rowenna skye k?

mmmmmm. darling. thank you.

mmmmmm. darling. thank you.
shit stressy day. venison stew!
...sweet pots, kale, barley...

prep tuck exeats

prep tuck exeats
so exclusive. yet happy?
yes, exeunt. ex.

200+.. Good..

200+.. Good..
Entrenched / repeat homeless, complex
Investment ok?

her foot found mine, stayed

her foot found mine, stayed
sleepily deliberately
last night, years ago

fantasia on theme

fantasia on theme
imagined memories of dad
and dave at cambridge

how to live after

how to live after
death? grief long loneliness stuff
love you dearest mum

million pounds funding

million pounds funding
bid, commissioned, referred in
hundred complex lives

The Old Ways by Robert MacFarlane

give good friends this joy!
chalk sea silt peat gneiss ghost scapes
iamb of i am

Old Ways - Amazon

trenches '17

trenches '17
half that back: summer of love
what next this lifetime?

may our babe be well

may our babe be well
don't believe in prayer like this
but such is our love

oldest avenue

oldest avenue
through it walks our not yet born
exquisite mystery

skimming stones - chesil

skimming stones - chesil
chapel, classroom, meals - cranleigh
lying on floor - home

test, scans, first felt kick

test, scans, first felt kick
points of emotional awe
and now thoughtful awe

aga back on. yes!

aga back on. yes!
please don't judge. it... who?! why care?
welsh cakes. so happy

sweet dreams my beauty

sweet dreams my beauty
you're toiling more than ever
bless your heart and child

so you're a wriggler!

so you're a wriggler!
your mama's got you going
keep calmly wriggling

things happen, and don't

things happen, and don't
yet always old paths, hills, streams, skies
involvement, yet more

happy hols ending

happy hols ending
somehow should pull this wagon
the show must go on

evening autumn rain

evening autumn rain
morning rice trailer shower
lunchtime river dip

where she grew you, love

where she grew you, love
many places days and nights
tired sick painful, love

narcissism more

 narcissism more
decapitation with fire

experiments raw

years ago we walked

years ago we walked
twixt villages: bears friends feasts
nepal; ancient here

my dog fell asleep

my dog fell asleep
nose on my chest, eyelids white
blithe as an ancient

i love low pressure

i love low pressure
when clouds fly past the moon and
all feels like the sea

flat roof carport...on...
summer winds stars sea just there
church owls...gone now...dad

transition zone come

transition zone come
shekinah has come (good news)
we will come (free will)

eureka moment

eureka moment
just don't get pissed off with stuff
short life. or heaven.

between Rage and Spem

between Rage and Spem
i fit musically; in stance.
somehow both? in trance?

first kicks felt, beats heard!

first kicks felt, beats heard!
e-coli. not grave. but still.
growing so much love

last walk with him, high

last walk with him, high
new talk of amdram, meeting!
then fly tipping, sigh

new year's day just gone

new year's day just gone
he relished game pie, such thanks
gave us logs from boot

do relax my friend

do relax my friend
ottolenghi in the bath
sensual salvation

how my sonnets speak

how my sonnets speak:
set the scene; not that yet this;
childlike couplets pure

The Outrun by Amy Liptrot

noctilucent cloud

orkney birds and london booze

freshest winds and words

Book website here

green fields and black hills

green fields and black hills
sheep poos and bracken - their smells
sunshine and mizzen

silver and gold bond

silver and gold bond
always, just for you and me
diamond, conflict free

sand martins' neat homes

sand martins' neat homes
whence they fly fast and low
over their river

whisky barrel warm

whisky barrel warm
outside welsh borders earth house

where we we engage

 

who so find this golden nugget

who so find this golden nugget
to thy true love now do give it!
DESTINY IS ALL

prayer flags round stupa

prayer flags round stupa
rosemary fennel mint bouquet
daphne's loving touch

heartfelt father's day

heartfelt father's day
never meant so much as now
may you be happy

Dear children, young, old

Dear children, young, old:
Our Mums' nausea, worry, pain
(And that's just before)

you were a lentil

you were a lentil
when i electric fenced you
hope you're ok love

spem in alium

spem in alium
forty mouths' murmurations
acid sex sea more

on earth! as at death

on earth! as at death
walking on bunting shadow
a plus! and again!

gloucester to lincoln

gloucester to lincoln

trains, laptop, homeless SIB group

cathedrals, fields, skies

on train slowly up

on train slowly up
to crossing where colin died
daaaaaaaaaaaaaaad... oh, upturned car

where we're small, you're big

where we're small, you're big
mountains, moors; listening, love; death
when we're small, you fill

don't hit; keep stroking

don't hit; keep stroking
more than nothing; not too much
it's the bowl that sings

lay on bed of moss

lay on bed of moss
on leg of cadair idris
under heaven's sun

unmappable stars

unmappable stars
purest water streaming loud
heaven fresh so close

buds bloom in blue heat

buds bloom in blue heat
as dad hears how cancer's spread
may seasons roll on

learning to observe

learning to observe
body breaths sounds vents doing
likewise then promptings?

byproducts: peace, health
kindly refocus from angst
yet not biggest point?

branch strong awesome there

branch strong awesome there
sawn chopped smelled marvelled warming
glows to ash to dust

gathered. apple pips

gathered. apple pips
atman brahman a-u-m
still dew quietness

2000 steps, years

2000 steps, years
new sights, lose path, re-find
we're back home, count on